Thursday, December 4, 2008

Let me introduce myself
I am new to blogging. My journalling and poetry have always been intensely private and personal.It seems like a curious exercise to lay out my thoughts for anyone to read and critique. It feels a bit like parading down main street naked!! It feels awkward and there is some part of me that is resistant...wants to go pull out my paper journal and forgo this strange, new medium of expression! I am unwilling to admit defeat and am going to plow ahead no matter how foolish I feel. Let me intoduce myself. I am a married mother of two teenagers. My husband is an engineer and I am a pediatric nurse. I don't like to feel hemmed in so I work per diem. There are two strange things about my being a nurse. First, I am a total and complete hypochondriac. Have been all my life. What can I say? Aren't we all just a bit neurotic? This has been my way of NOT dealing with feelings since I was a tot. I can remember feeling sad about my grandparents and great aunt rose having to leave us and return to the city ( the city= NYC) after a fun Christmas together. I sat on the couch and on Aunt Roses's lap and squished my right aunt behind her back. I was convinced that I had an infection on the tip of my right middle finger. There was hard bump there, a writer's callous, and I was convinced that puss was going to erupt at any moment. Gross! I know, but earlier that summer my brother had a real infection on his scabby knee complete with pusicle and I was totally freaked out by it. Now I was manifesting my own "infection" instead of dealing with my feelings of loss. I have followed this pattern my whole life and still manifest diseases when I have unruly emotions! I never aspired to become a nurse. I sort of fell into for expediency's sake! I live in upstate NY, more cows than people!! My bachelor's degree in poly sci is basically useless in the modern job market even more so in rural America hence my foray into nursing! It was a practical decision. I tranferred credits into an associate degree RN program and was able to attend a community college in my own town... A nice balancing act for a mother of two young boys. After working med surg for a year, I had bald spots and the shakes!!(not really but it sounds dramatic!) I hated adult nursing and began to fear old age because of what I was encountering on a daily basis. Switching to per diem pediatric nursing enabled me to stay in the profession. I have been doing it for the past 8 years. I love taking care of children. They do say the darndest things. Yesterday, I was pulling the oxygen mask back up over the mouth and nose of a three year old for like the millionth time ( he didn't like this and kept pulling it off...imagine that? a non compliant toddler...how odd!) when he sighed dramatically and said "why are you being so mean to me. ...can't we just be friends????" Three going on thirty!!! I love those cute little kids!! Well I just looked at the clock and realized that an hour and a half of my life just got sucked into the black hole that is cyber space. More later.
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lisaknits
I currently live in beautiful upstate NY with my husband and children. I grew up in the shadow of NYC in Lake Hopatcong NJ. I am an RN and I work per diem on a pediatric ward. I am an avid reader, writer, and crafter. I work out consistently alternating 3 mile runs with strength training and aerobics and I love to cook healthy food for friends and family. I love interacting with people and socializing but I also feel comfortable with being alone and find creative uses for my extra time. View my complete profile